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when my fingers crawl back
to where they left behind tally marks

when i feel my insides turn to ice
and shake like earthquakes

when there is no distinction 
between relapse and recovery

when i am afraid
wide-eyed and reckless

i try to remember why i set down the 
blade, left the slice

where i couldn't touch 
my insides anymore

i am trying to resist the siren's call
of metal, distorted reflections

i am trying to be as strong
as everyone says i am

i am not as strong as everyone
says i am, only as strong

as i can be,
i do not know how strong i can be.
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Shoeborn's avatar
...I am no real use to anyone, when it comes to words anymore. Only, that I can and maybe could not ever know how you are feeling or what you are going through, but in some slight way that last line resounds with me so I will try and cling to that slight understanding. You are no one but yourself, and I can not claim to know who that is. But you cover all with beautiful words, and I am tired of silence, so I will tell you that you are something more than what we can know, us here or out there. You are trying, and that is more important than anything I can say.