i will break you.
you will be silent witness
to the way my heart swings
back and forth, back and forth,
like a grandfather clock
to the bombs i planted in my fingertips,
everyone i touch gets hurt.
this way, i have excuses not to get close to people.
though i can see me breaking all vows for you;
children i never meant to have,
a life i would not have imagined for myself;
sometimes you make me feel like
a caged predator.
all the anger i've learned,
all the fight i hold buried in my throat,
i become helpless.
i broke you broke me broke up,
kissed him a week later.
i am not sorry.